HOT TOPIC : It suddenly feels real now that I am making a deposit.

Currently the HOT TOPIC on the knot: "Is a half-dozen rose bouquet too small for the bridesmaids? WHAT?! who cares?! I can't believe how many responses that has. Do people really feel strongly about the size of a bouquet? Seriously. Can there really be "too small"? I know there could be "too big" meaning cumbersome to carry, but will people really look at my bridesmaids and say "she should have sprung for bigger bouquets"? Man. Ps. The Knot is calling this the "HOT TOPIC", I didn't make that up.

I just came back from the gym, it's 8:45am and I am already on the knot. I can't help it. Yesterday we came back from the Ballroom, and I am signing the contract this week, most likely. I know we don't have the church yet, but Matt SWEARS I shouldn't worry, and I suppose I should listen to him because he's done this before. We are now past the annulment contention period, it should go through VERY shortly, so I suppose he's right. We still have 15 months until the wedding.

So um, I can say that we are definitely getting married in May 2009. It's real, it's happening. I can plan, and I don't have to worry. So I'm on the knot. So sue me. I'm very excited, and they have an excellent guest list tool, which I am loving. I can see who is single, who is coming with a guest, who is a child/not ordering alcohol... I can also add them to separate guest lists for the rehearsal dinner, the shower, and the bachlor/ette parties, and plus in their e-mail and street addresses. It's a great tool. I need to do a good first guest list so that Matt and I can really hammer out a budget - we are already saving, which is great, but we need to ramp it up.

But I could care less about bouquets, or flowers in general. I am not having my wedding reception next to a shark tank so that people can look at dead plants.

I have been quietly flipping out about the wedding, because I am SO stressed about the annulment. When is FINALLY going to be FINAL?! When can I start planning? Ug ug ug. I have this paniac every few days that all the Catholic churches in Philly are going to be booked for May 2009 soon. I mean, it's possible. It's a Catholic town, May is a popular month, saturday is the best day ARRRGH.

I registered at a church in the West Village, but now we are moving to Tribeca. Should I re-register? How does that work? Maybe I'll start all over gain fresh and figure this out. I sorta' want meet with a Priest on my own. Tell him my concerns, and maybe get confession so that I'm all set. WTF, this is all so confusing.

On the nonsense side of things, I like these invitations. I wish the colors were different, but I can change that, I'm sure. I like having the ocean animals on the invites, but I don't want palm trees. We are having an aquarium wedding, not a beach wedding. So I can't do that exact pattern, but I like the look. Man, letterpress is expensive. I wonder if it's really that big a deal. I like the way it feels, but come on, people don't, like, SAVE the invitations. Hey "Monkey Girl", did you see these?

My friend Kevin has a printing company, maybe I could ask him for ideas. A co-worker of mine is a grpahic designer, too. Hmmm. I guess I should stop thinking about this and work on the church stuff though. No point in thinking about invites when you can't set a date. :(