This photo was taken by Michael Leslie.

Ok, so, Matt's marriage was annulled and I am the happiest person alive. I really, REALLY wanted a Catholic wedding and a Catholic marriage, and now I can, he can, and his ex can too. EVERYONE IS HAPPY! Except... gay people, but I really feel in my heart of hearts that this will change some day. I am meeting with a priest on Monday at this ultra-liberal West Village church (they have a Catholic Lesbians group, which made my heart burst into rainbows), and I really can't wait. I plan on doing a soul dump.

I have been living such a selfish, self-serving life, I haven't done volunteer stuff in a year, and I feel horrible about it. I haven't done much prayer or anything to connect with that part of me either. It's an empty way to live, for me. So I think he'll have suggstions. I would love to connect volunteer work with getting involved in the church again. I would love to ACT like I care about the greater good instead of just SAYING that I do - like the rich Tribeca yuppie that I am terrified to realize I am slowly becoming.

Anyway, so that is on track, and I am talking to two photographers. One is too expensive ($5000), but he has shot in the aquarium so many times, was very responsive, and was recommended by the aquarium itself. He shot the photo I attached to this post. I am worried about the low lighting and the reflective tanks. I want a good, seasoned photographer that isn't expensive... impossible? I hope not. I found a couple that has also shot in the aquarium who will do it for $3,300, which is more than I wanted to spend, but I DO get TWO photographers for the price. I am going to check out their stuff next weekend. Wish me luck.

I also found the woman that I want to do my hair, and I am going to set up a trial soon. My plan is to have this whole wedding planned by fall, and NFL kickoff. I think I can do it, I've had a year of sitting on my thumbs, waiting for the annullment and just looking at things, so I already know what I want. I just have to find the person to get it to me - for the right price.

I am paying $1000 for my wedding dress. I can do it.